Preface
Between the various back to back passings in my family, or even more recently the panic attacks I’ve been having, I’ve become acutely aware of my own and others’ mortality. I realized that anyone and everyone including me can go at any second, and I hate to get morbid but I don’t think without going through some of the things I have (which is unfortunate to say) I don’t think I would have the outlook on life that I do right now.
As a big brother, you have a moral obligation to protect your younger siblings from anything. I can’t really explain it but you would do anything to protect them. It’s just a sibling thing I guess. I couldn't protect him. So I made it my responsibility to protect everyone as much as I can. Many of these people included in this project are influential to my life in many ways. Many of these people like Zach (who cried with me on the Playstation when I told him my brother died and my closest friend) or Michella (who helped me start a magazine and introduced me to her godmother Nene who let me shadow her in her studio) are like siblings to me if they aren’t already family. These are people that I want to protect.
I have a newfound appreciation for the life I’m living and the people I live in this world with. I’m grateful for being able to breathe and talk and being able to take pictures and even being able to talk to some of my classmates even though I’m not the best texter (sorry Jerson and Anais lol). I’m grateful for my family, my friends, my life. I used to take people for granted but even though it’s a cliche you never really know how good you have it till it’s gone and if I go I can at least say that I appreciated the people in my life and I documented that appreciation.
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Life's full of hard choices.
Things never get easier, but you get used to the pain. One of my friends told me that this point of my life isn't about my legacy and what I'll be known for, that I should focus on perfecting my technique. I guess I can't help it. The future scares me and I control it. What will my legacy be? What will I be known for? What's my impact on this Earth? It's 5:30am. The Good Things, would that be my legacy? Would I be okay not living a famous life, full of material wealth? Would I be happy moving to New York, going to school? Questions. Questions, I'll know the answer to in time.
